无意义的虚无，成为最大的感受，一切事物都和我格格不入。无能为力，生活中的客观事物被空洞和荒芜全部占据。
Meaningless nothingness becomes the greatest feeling. My mind seemed to be dead, and everything was out of tune with me. Powerless, the objective things in life are completely occupied by emptiness and desolation.